Seven and a half weeks

Seven weeks have past with the love of my life doing what she does best and all of it far away from home. Within that time I have learned a lot and now that she's home she will also learn of it too but not just yet! I have a happy day coming up very soon and I'd like to keep the mood happy. I want nothing more than smiles and laughter and the pleasure of us being together sharing our moments and our feelings. The arrangement had been that I would meet her at the train station at 14:30. Life doesn't always comply with our little plans especially when someone wants to surprise you. I was downstairs in the restaurant at around 12:30 and I was just taking the fresh linens from the store cupboard into the restaurant ready for the tables to be laid for the afternoon when suddenly the door opened and in she comes with that delicious smile of hers.
It wasn't so much of a solitude that I'd endured during her time away because I had my close family and I had my friends and work colleagues around me but we all know what was missing from my days and nights. The one with whom I can enjoy everything.

Is it romance? I'm not sure about this...
In my mind romance has never been about the 'love' in of itself but more like the 'dream of love'. It is the prelude and the sunrise of a beautiful love. It is the introduction to the greatest of all happiness. The prologue of passion, it is the flowers and the chocolates given to me and those that I give to her. Does not the flower seduce the bee into assistance with its fertilization? Does not chocolate contain a certain chemical that is naturally produced inside our bodies as we get 'hot' with sexual infatuation?

Well actually no! If you click the link then read just past the part where it says that 'low levels are found in those suffering from depression and high levels are found in those with schizophrenia' and read the sub-heading, "Chocolate theory of love." Perhaps armed with this knowledge, I think that the romantic gifts given to me were more often likely to be sexy lingerie! At least it implies an invitation to what we really want. The more prudish amongst us are the ones that tell us not to kiss in public and personally I can quite live with that one. I don't have the impulse to grab my girlfriend and kiss her while we are heading up to the 'ni-chome' or just out shopping in the mall and quite honestly I don't need to see other couples doing it!
Perhaps it really is as some say, "the primrose path to perdition!" (Laughs)
You don't have to be a man or a lesbian like me to acknowledge the fact that the female body is a powerful drug and an attractive lure. I think that it can be regarded as the key component of the desire to initiate romance. The Muslims of course knew this and cut the chance of romance blossoming by demanding that their women hide their beauty that was given by biology. Their long flowing hair and curvaceous hips are well hidden behind dark veils and shapeless robes. Is it an insult to the nature of men or to the beauty of women or is it an insult to nature itself? Romance might be an illusion but it is one that gave me color and lured me along the paths of dreams into my promised land. I love it and even this deep into a relationship I do not say that the romance has gone.

So this is love and we race upstairs, still unpacked and not yet showered from her travels, she and I shared the joy of togetherness after such a long time apart. This is the tenderness, the respect, the desire, the concern, the affection and possessiveness that grow like fruits in the vines of our land. Our utopia is the totality of all that I give and all she gives. It is the reciprocation of me thinking more of her than I do of myself and of her showing me the same esteem and values. The romance hasn't gone entirely as we approach our fourth year, it appears in exactly the places where it's least expected, which of course is exactly the right place for it.
These are magic moments, unexpected moments and spontaneous moments. The newness of fresh relationships are full of the soft tenderness and the sexual infatuations but we all know these things gradually fall into habit and perhaps lassitude. Love is what allows a couple to stay together after the thrill of those initial stages. There are moments of boredom brought on by routines and we suffer the tensions of individual frictions from the annoyances of sometimes being too close. We can fall into the numbness of intermittent anaesthesia and seek respite in solitary moments or perhaps the company of others.
Yes we have all of that too but our secret of staying together and of enjoying it is quite simple and not something that any of you' could fail to understand. When we are alone it’s something we could do without but when you are a couple then absence makes it a missed part of our normal togetherness. We make time for each other and we make time for imaginatively good sex.
I still like romance movies and books because even if it’s not my romance, I like to see the joy of others sharing it and when we see it in fiction, we can be up close and personal and identify with those characters on an intimate level.

She is the one that I want to spend all my days with and if I could marry her I would. In a monogamous society, marriage is the long term commitment of two people who pool their resources and endeavors and share the consequences of life together both good and bad. We live together as a married couple and so in a sense we are married. We are just denied the social and legal recognition of it because those who make the laws are offended by it. These moral conservatives cant' stop me from loving her or her from loving me. They can't stop us from living together and from comforting one another and in helping each other in our daily lives. They can just be mean enough to withhold the blessings and support from the community that we live in.

They say that gay marriage isn't natural because it won't produce children. Is this their justification for sex? Actually thanks to science one of us could have a child and we could raise it into being a healthy adult. What children need is love, not limitations on who is allowed to provide it.

The world is unfair and always will be.
Konna dokusaisha ni iyashime rareru nowa kanashii
I really don't understand the situation and it's no game!