Just walk into the light!

Hitomi and I had been enjoying a Caesar salad lunch with Rina and watching my little nephew exploring what he can do with his hands. He is already five and a half months old and he likes to blow bubbles in his mouth and shake a small rag doll. He can sit unassisted for long periods of time before falling over into awaiting arms or his large safety pillows. Time passes so quickly! This week he has started on his first solid of baby porridge and from the range of baby juices that he's been introduced to he seems to likes apple juice best of all. The most beautiful thing is for me to sit behind him where he cannot see me and I talk. I talk about anything and everything, it matters not. There is of course seemingly little interest or no response at all but should I say his name, he will turn around and look at me. This ability at so young an age has me smiling. The fact that I smile and give him a kiss and a hug may also help this progress as I'm sure he can now learn about cause and effect, it is in effect a reward for his behavioral responses.
Is it only children that enjoy the present? I seem to have constant hope for the future and my dad seems to dwell more and more often in his past!

"Did you ever have the feeling to want children?" Rina asked me.
It's a question I have been asked on several occasions and I think each time my answer was different but all in all as much as I love children, I do not believe I will have one. I am content knowing my families genetic line passes into the next generation with two of my brothers. I know for a fact that if by some future reason I would fall pregnant then my whole lifestyle would change and I would become the Mother that my baby needed me to become and that my maternal instincts would drive me to become. As the life partner of another girl it is unlikely that we'd want our present lifestyle changing and in this country it is not legal for a single girl or two partners of the same gender to use artificial insemination. Only a legally married couple may have access to such services. While many of you could imagine how easy it could be for my love or myself to go out and obtain a sample, I can tell you that purely random samples are not what I'd want for the development of my child. I'd want a sample from someone with a good genetic history.

Hiro phoned up later that afternoon and said that a delivery had arrived for Hitomi. He and two of the waiters from the restaurant brought the boxes up for us and we guided them into the utilities bedroom which henceforth will be known as Hitomi's studio. She'd popped into 'Yodobashi Camera' in Shinjuku and bought her photographic lights, filters and reflectors last Wednesday and now here they all were and they replaced the old lights that she'd obtained from a closing down auction. We unpacked them and then tore up the cardboard for the recycle sacks.
T.W is coming over on Tuesday for a drink or two with us and Hitomi will no doubt like to add to her portfolio.