Never Alone!

It has been four days since I said goodbye to her on Sunday morning and if I were to count the remaining time I would have to say 67 days more! But I am not counting.

Celine Dion - Al

She like I, will concentrate on work and perhaps we will not give attention to the slowly expanding vacuum inside our hearts that screams for attention and creates the desire within like a thirst demanding to be quenched. "Alone" is just a word used to describe a feeling but it relies on you knowing the word and associating it to the same feeling you have felt, more than that the word just becomes a whisper on the breeze or a splash of ink on the canvas. It is just a word, but the feeling it relates to is a tangible thing, like a shell that would dare to envelop you and try to hold you at a distant and remote place. Sometimes the solitude is desired to enable us to write or as we bravely say, "to find ourselves". But often it plays a large presence in George Orwell's room 101, a room said to contain everyone's fears and it is represented well by the sudden and unique silence after the music ends.

For some poor souls loneliness had become like a shield and in this land where the sun begins, they have withdrawn to the darkness and seclusion of their rooms and closed their doors and the blinds on the sun. These hikikomori (social hermits) perhaps find that the only way to reach out now is chat room and social websites like 'Facebook', 'Myspace' and 'Mixi.' These have become their only contact? What loneliness is greater that that of distrust? To be shunned or declared an outcast is perhaps understandable to some point but this self imposed loneliness has perhaps become a fear that as they try to escape from others and even escape from themselves, they fear the direct presence of others just because the eyes of these strangers will reflect the pain they feel in themselves! A vision none us wants to see.

This loneliness is a disease that none of us should suffer greater than that of a momentary melancholic mood. In simplistic terms, the cure becomes self evident in that those so alone could reach out for each other. A great pity that life is never so simple and we over complicate everything with many levelled layers of reasoning, social politics and other abstractions.

The first understanding should be truth.
This is me and I know who I am. If I show you who I am then you might not like me, but if you do like me, then at least you will like me for the real me and like me for the good things you hopefully see in me and also try to forgive the bad things you may see.
I am like you in so many ways. I have hopes and dreams and ambitions and expectations. But I also have moods and faults and am a complete human with the full range of "Jekyll and the Hyde" attributes. I'm not perfect and I don't claim to be. If not being lonely just means stepping outside, slowly learning to trust and after a time allowing some of whom you meet to come a little closer, then we should start now no matter how daunting it seems.

I hope you have all been alone once in your lives just to know how such a tragic emptiness it is. A prolonged loneliness will whither our hearts as they find no other heart to know and our minds will close down hearing nothing but echoes of our own lonely memories. The death of inspiration and creativity. Knowing this then you could bring a smile to a lonely person and in beginning to know them you will find that you are no longer alone either.

I wish you all lives of good family, comradeship, really good friends and of course love.