Swings and round about

Once again chaos rules and I say that like it's a bad thing! Of course we all like order, organization with structure and symmetry. A place for everything and everything in its place as the old cliché goes! We plan ahead to adapt ourselves to known schedules and then when it all changes you can feel like it was all a wasted effort and pointless in its planning. However even chaos has its own strange if confusing rules. A little randomness gives us those nice surprises in life as well as sometimes giving us extra work-loads. So let's not curse something that we have no control over. A little randomness is only to be expected and therefore is not chaos a little predictable? At least we try to make room for it! I refuse to complain because complaining rarely changes anything and only succeeds in adding a little negativity into my heart. Accept it because it won't go away and enjoy the good and learn to deal with anything else.

Hitomi has been out with Dad practicing her golfing skills. Of course Dad likes to say that he's simply coaching her but more than anything else, I like how they have formed a good relationship together. I think it is very important that theirs is a family bonding because she is 'family'. Same sex marriages are not allowed here but as a token of our eternal love, Hitomi and I have exchanged rings and we live our lives as if we were married and that is fine with the both of us. If I was that way inclined and had a boyfriend or husband then I would be equally as pleased to see him and my Father build a good relationship together too. Hitomi had to go over to her office to collect her travel documents and itinerary for her assignment away next week! Look out Thailand, crazy girl approaching!
I'll just take my free afternoon and go swimming with Yoshi.

I met up with Yoshi for lunch and a swim. No French food today and nothing too heavy before going into the pool. We just took noodles with egg since this is easily digestible and then we walked over to the pool. Yoshi saw her cousin there and so stood with him to catch up with family news and I swam a few lengths in breast-stroke. I have always loved swimming and I won a few medals for swimming during my school days. These days I simply enjoy the relaxation and the pleasure of immersing myself and I don't even consider such things as health benefits or the sporting aspects of pool side sports. After about twenty minutes she had disappeared from view and ten minutes after that found me wondering if not worried. I couldn't see her anywhere and that is not a comfortable feeling.
The camera on this old NEC 830 Phone isn't so good!

I left the water and casually strolled up to the balcony and I was relieved to see her sitting at a table with a drink and talking animatedly on her phone. I too bought a drink and dried off a little before joining her. Once her business was finished she was very interested to learn of my meeting last Saturday and I told her that I wasn't overly confident about that prospect as a future avenue.
She is in advertising and sales promotions and we discussed at length possible areas that I may consider venturing towards in November with my experience and skills. I want to do something but I need something less demanding than my present situation because of commitments that I will have elsewhere. Luckily Yoshi had her digital cam! We must have been sat for an hour before we returned to the water where Yoshi and I had twenty minutes swimming before leaving to get changed. The pool it seems has becomes a social meeting house rather than actually enjoying the water, much the bath houses of old!
I guess we can consider that with what limited information I have opened here it seems that my future has not been too well planned out!
The truth, without me going into too much detail and write about personal information, is that I cannot maintain my commitment to my present job because of health reasons. Resigning wasn't a bad move or a hastily thought out decision. I know what I have to do but what I don't know is what else can I do?
That dear friends is the question and I will say no more on that matter.